Through My Eyes

I have seen the best minds of my generation
staring into the oblivion that
is this world of melded metal and flesh.

The battles of previous generations are
meaningless compared to the one mine faces;
we try to find a reason to exist in a world
where all things are empty and devoid of
reason or purpose.

So we choose our hiding places to replace
the lost meaning.
a joint, a bottle, television
Or watching and wondering who in Tinsle town
is sexing up who or which "Star" does more
coke then a hooker gets semen.

So let us all turn and thank those who came
before us for giving us a world that is
dying and all aspects of society are
infected by political correctness and corruption.

They sit hidden from the world behind
their seats of inscrutable power and
pretend to be perfect while at home
their wives lie beaten and their daughter’s panties
lay stained by fathers cum.

Drunks with money play the big boy
game of politics and idiots who couldn’t
read anything but coloring books are in charge.

In roman style Americans are kept
happy with bread and circus except
the bread is a cheeseburger with two thousand
calories and the circus is the only thing
more meaningless then life and that’s pretend
life viewed through a box.

Orgies and vomitoriums are well on their
way for we all eat and fuck till
we are sick and con no longer eat
or copulate any more.

And the most fucked concepts in this world
are Morals and Grammar.

So the only thing left is me and you.
So I shall bear myself to you.


I am the disease that will infect
the minds of the youth and turn them
against you.

And I will rise up unstoppable to do
what I must to make you see through
my eyes.

I will leave you scarred and scared
and I will rejoice in your tears as it
means I have reached you.

You who will lie awake at night
and ponder the images of your minds
own creation.

You who will take me into yourself
and become infected with the ailment
there is no cure for.

You who will hate me and scorn me
even as you love and adore yourself
for what I stir in you.

You who will rejoice in the tears of
others and will giggle at their emptiness
as it fills with what your bring them.

You who will pine away with "Hot Theopathy"
for what O will serve to everyone and
to you alone.

You who will be murdered inside by me
so that you will be reborn in a way that
you may understand.

You who will never see the raw beauty
that you are that inspires me to
need you in flesh and mind.

You who will burn with desire and
nothing will stop you and when you read
you shall come at the first word.

You who will cheat death only to
live a life ten thousand times worse
then that which you escaped.

You who will sacrifice everything so
that you may one day be something
that I desire.

You who will never see my face yet
feel you know who I really am
hidden deep within.

You who will get down on your knees
to both pray to an uncaring god
and then to suck cock.

You who will stop at nothing to hide
your secrets from a world that
wouldn’t understand.

You who will die to preserve the honor
of a fools and that fools father though
they had none in the first place.

You who will never leave home or
look at a woman other then your
own mother and you wish things that
Mr. Ginsburg wouldn't say and I won’t say for him.

You who will live to please but will only to pain your
lovers and plague the world with disgust as
you try to pass yourself off as something other then a hack.

You who will pretend to be one
that you are not because you are
not interested in yourself

You will fuck me and Bon Jovi and
Bruce Lee and Mr. Pound and Dante
just to say you did.


I am not human.
I am a god in flesh.
I do as I must, not as I please.
I choose to please you.
I love to live,
and I live to offend you.
I have marked you.
I have come to claim your soul.

I got really bored and decided to look through my old Da account and found an old poem I wrote a while ago.

Accidents Waiting to Happen: The Elderly

Not too long ago I was looking at a newspaper from my first college I attended Umass Amherst. The front page story was about some student being struck by an elderly driver while bicycling to work on campus. It seemed to be of little consequence to me as I had few friends while I attended Umass. I went on to read how the young woman was a cleaning woman in the Southwest living area and had been in pursuit of her Bachelors Degree for some time. I looked again at the picture and it hit me. That is my friend Misty. I had seen her not two months earlier on a get together camping trip of a group I used to be an active part of. I reread the article this time paying full attention to the article. Apparently she had been struck by an elderly driver while biking to work in the bike lane. The old woman had crossed into the bicycle lane just at the right moment to strike Misty with her car. At the moment teen drivers still account for most of the accidents on the road but that is because there are more teen’s then old drivers. However, soon there will be more old drivers then young as the baby boomer generation turns into their Golden Years and fewer kids than ever are being born. Right now there are mainly just some highly publicized cases of elderly drivers getting into accidents. In twenty years due to modern medicine being as good as it is more old people than ever before will still be on the roads.

Please do not misunderstand me. I fully appreciate everything the generations before me have given up and sacrificed so we can live in the world we do. I am the youngster who thanks Vietnam Veterans for their service, I stop and help people on the side of the road with flat tires, I even help elderly women load things into their cars, but when that sweet old lady gets behind the wheel to drive home I can't help but smoke a cigarette sitting in my car before I too drive away. Now is the time to follow the example of the state of New Hampshire and test elderly drivers before letting them renew their cars registration. This issue is largely ignored by Senators and even the people in The House of Representatives, on State and National levels. One might ask why an important issue like this is not being discussed when not a year goes by that most states don't think about raising the legal driving age by a year or even two. There are several basic reasons why these issues are not even payed attention to. First is the elderly population in this country votes in a higher percentage than any other, offending them is political suicide. Secondly there are budget related problems. If we start telling people they cannot drive themselves around then something needs to be provided in the form of transport. The large reason this is unfeasible is that the elderly are everywhere. Providing all of them who lose their privilege to drive (and yes driving is a privilege NOT a Right) with even just transit to a grocery store and Wal-Mart (or the local equivalent) simply once a week would cost Billions of Dollars a year if not Trillions! The other option is burden families with elderly with the cost of a nursing home or the burden of driving Grandma to the store whenever she needs to go.

The last reason why nothing will happen is because despite the few young faces shown in The Houses and The Senates it is mainly a club for rich old white guys. (As of August 26, 2009, 1 Senator is in his 90s, 3 are in their 80s, 20 are in their 70s, 35 are in their 60s, 31 are in their 50s, 9 are in their 40s, and 0 are in their 30s. The median age is now 62.) The Elderly are the ones in charge of making these laws we need to protect us from them! Tell me that honestly Ted Kennedy (God rest his soul) or even Arlen Specter should be driving a car. These are two men I have the utmost respect for but if I saw either one in my rearview mirror I would pull off as soon as possible and not just because either could be mistaken for a zombie. (Driving Zombie Jokes aside though.) Quite frankly, the elderly are more of a hazard to themselves. They are the only people guaranteed to be involved. My last point is what do we do with these elderly drivers who by all rights have no place behind the wheel and get in accidents? Take the woman who hit and killed my friend Misty. What peace does it give me or any of her other grieving friends that a sweet old lady who should have had a driver’s test done will go to jail for the rest of her life? What does that accomplish? That is not what the American Justice system was designed for and brings no peace. Let it rest on the Senators and Representatives who have ignored the pleas and plight of their people. Who have ignored letters and emails on this subject from myself and many others.

For Once,

LET THERE BE JUSTICE

Model Citizen

So the other day I was surfing the Internet for porn. This is not that unusual of an occurrence honestly but that day was different. I happened to stumble across a picture of an extremely skinny woman. I thought she was fucking hot. I wanted more. So after searching around my usual sites I found myself at YouTube. I searched for skinny, then anorexic and there i got what I was looking for. I found a video of this extremely nice thin girl who just looked....Yum. As I watched this video I quickly found out she was formerly anorexic, had lots of problems and almost died from not eating. All I could think was well damn it made her look good. That is when the video led me to the now pictures of her. I was disgusted. I hate to say it but she gained around 100 pounds. She still weighed under 200 but it looked like she had a beer gut for Christs sake! She went on to talk about how her boyfriend was the person who helped her out. I cant help but think if I was her boyfriend at around 120 pounds I would have started making passive aggressive back handed compliments along the lines of "You're filling out very nicely baby." Or how about "A girl with meat on her bones turns me on...I guess." I might even get as bad as telling her the next costume party we go to she could go as a dead ringer for Carnie Wilson or more realistically Danielle Fishelle. (Of Wilson Phillips and Boy Meets World respectively) As I watched the video again I was struck by the fact that despite that she is obviously in a good deal of pain due to her issues I didn't care. In the beginning I saw a beautiful attractive slim woman I would have loved to go for a roll in the hay with and on the other I saw a fat woman I wouldn't have wanted to go on a car ride with much less pay for her to go out to dinner with me. I wondered if this made me a shitty human being and then I came to the conclusion. No it did not. There are many reasons why I am a shitty human being but the fact of the matter is even if the media culture has saturated my head with images of anorexic bitches and made me want to go a round or two with them it is my sexual preference. So now we get to the whole point of today's blog. Why does everyone have their rights protected except the people who are concisely conforming to the masses? There are many activists Gay Rights, Civil Rights, Women's Lib, Religious Rights, Hell even Pedophiles have their own activists. (http://www.section21.m6.net/prf-activism.php) So why is it that with all this activism going on, that in my very own head, I feel as if I should be a piss poor human being for rubbing out a few knuckle children to an overly skinny nineteen year old woman. Why is it that when a woman overheard me discussing this dilemma inside a Denny's restaurant that she told me I was just another oppressive asshole for playing into an over used stereotype? Personally I believe in entirely equal rights for all human beings regardless of their Gender, Race, Ethnicity, Sexual Preference, Whether they choose to smoke or not, or even if they choose to believe in a higher power. Old people and pedophiles are different story and I will get to that at a later point. I'm not saying that all woman have to be skinny and wear slutty outfits for my viewing pleasure. I'm just saying appreciate the ones that do...